by Jenny Leather | Life Success
Journey to Surrendering 12 kg
Day 4.
Wow no headache this morning, head just feels a bit heavy. Yesterday I found myself pondering on how often I would unconsciously choose to eat. Breakfast that extra piece of toast or 2 and then off for a wander down the shops, stop for a cup of tea and yes I probably order something sweet. It would not be long before I am back in front of the TV or computer and think about a cup of tea and probably a biscuit. Maybe there was a lolly grabbed from the door of the fridge. The day continues in the similar vein, go visit a friend and socialise over food and drink. Meet up with family and friends and eat. Watch TV or go to the movies time to eat.
The majority of the time I am not hungry, I have attached eating and being out and with friends as enjoyable. Take away the friends and I am left with a habit that says eating is enjoyable even when I don’t like cooking. I find I end up eating anything and have associated that as being enjoyable. When in truth I am eating stuff I don’t enjoy but has just become a habit
All good! This is a journey of discovery that is leading me to some bigger questions. Now I am asking myself WHY I would be doing these actions.
Even the process of digesting food regularly would be using a lot of my energy. Being overweight makes it harder to move around with ease so gives me excuse not to do exercise and get those endorphins flowing through my body. Could it be boredom or perhaps I am not living in integrity of who I am really know myself to BE. The latter instantly rings true.
To remember you are a being of unlimited potential that you have the ability to create all that you desire especially if it impacts the planet in a positive way can be overwhelming. All the old programs that tell you the opposite arise; time to eat would be my old pattern.
The eating pushes down the fear of what will people think, what if I fail and make a fool of myself. How will my life change? Now I am of the opinion who really cares? The majority of people hardly have time to care about themselves let alone be truly interested in me. As I mentioned yesterday “It is all about me” Do I really care about me and my life? Am I willing to stand up and share what I learn that could add value to other people who are willing to wake up to their own individual potential? Am I willing to honour all the amazing teachers who have supported my journey?
When we live our lives disconnected from our own individual potential and the passion we feel deep within, we will be sure to stay asleep to the patterns that have been holding us down.
Eating for me is obviously one. I remember being diagnosed with ulcers in my small bowel and a close friend told me I would need to drastically change my diet. My instant response was that it would be impossible to drop meat, sugar, white bread etc. even if it meant my death. When I look back at this and question am I addicted to the food that is so easily obtained these days? I know the answer is yes and that is OK because everything has bought me to this moment.
What would happen if I started to live my passion to inspire others to follow their heart? If I shared my journey of this game I call life, how differently would I feel? Well I have started here and I feel good, I understand those that are ready to awaken to their own potential will be the ones that will find my story. Thank you for coming back and sharing my journey and insights.
Have an amazing day. Send me your questions, perhaps we can turn our life around together.
Love always
Jenny
by Jenny Leather | Life Success
Journey to surrender 12 kg
Day 3 begins.
My vision of BEING slim, trim and feeling terrific flashes into my mind on awakening. This is my truth the body is just catching up to the vision. I see myself moving with ease and notice I have acquired body tone obviously the muscle has started to return. This to me is really exciting.
I ponder how I have had this vision before and achieved it in the now only to not be able to hold it as my truth. What has happened where I have given up on believing I am worthy to feel that good? Ahar there is that word “Worthy” funny how for so many years I thought I was unworthy to achieve or BE who I imagined myself to BE. I have heard so many clients mention this feeling of being not good enough at some level.
We seem to learn this early in life when parent and teachers who come from good intent expect or want us to be different than who we are at a certain moment. We seem to associate this as if they are right we are wrong. Which is crazy, we are here to learn and experience all aspects of life! To find out what works for us and what doesn’t, for everyone it will be different. Over the years this judgement accumulates into one massive I am not good enough and low self-esteem. Ultimately we find ourselves playing a small game because who are we to BE an amazing unlimited creative BEING of unlimited potential.
We actually are this BEING of unlimited potential; the fear of this truth holds us back from stepping into our authentic power.
Does this truth stop me from feeling my stomach growl because it is not getting the same amount of nourishment that it has been getting over the last couple of years? NO
Do I feel frustration for being at this position again in my life? Yes
I just close my eyes and hold the image of myself walking briskly along St Kilda beach with Gary or a girlfriend, meeting my boys in the park, training with the boxing gloves. I see myself laughing, smiling, while sweating, feeling the joy of being alive.
Slowly taking 3 or 4 deep breaths, surrendering any emotion that arises that potentially could hold back my vision, being my reality.
Thank you, thank you
Let’s see today how often I need to stop and breathe off emotion that arises, all good.
Looking forward to a great day.
Love always
Jenny
by Jenny Leather | Life Success
Journey to surrender 12kg
Day2 – Interesting how addicted our bodies are to certain sorts of food. I have awakened with a dull headache which I know is normal. My body has probably gone into shock due to getting its 2 litres of water at least, a touch of sea salt to help the cells absorb the fluid.
Why do we want to hold on to a way of being when consciously we absolutely know it is not good for our physical body?
It doesn’t feel comfortable to live with the excess weight but for me it is usually not until this discomfort gets so bad from my perception that I decide to CHANGE the game.
I have fitted into the category of being motivated from pain. I have found sometimes other areas of my life are so challenging that I also eat to dull the pain. I have found depending on what category is most challenging depends if I can work on my physical body. If I am in emotional pain, which I have been, I give so much of my energy to dealing with the situation that I am no longer strong enough to go through this addiction phase. In truth I do not even think about the topic.
My suggestion is to be real with yourself and check in to where the emotional pain is the greatest in your life and get some help and support to be able to stand strong for the life you desire.
Some people motivate themselves from a pleasurable vision of who they choose to be.
From a decision that says I am going to do this because I know I deserve a better reality. I am going to play full on so I get a greater understanding about myself. I am going to allow this journey to highlight emotions that I can surrender to a higher power to deal with. This is the vision I have for this journey.
From the understanding I have of my life journey now this is time. I have dealt with weight and body image for 38 years. Weight on weight off yet I had never been able to see the gift it was presenting me with to heal a deeper part of me.
From my perception I am here to BE the best ME I can be.
My mind has an incredible opinion about everything in life (the internal chatter can be crazy) and has been controlling my life game for 54 years. Now I am ready to take control of my mind and have it work and support me to create the vision I have for my time on this earth.
My motto is I am slim trim and feeling terrific. I am proud to be healthy wealthy and wise. It is up to me to design what these statements mean to me from a mind, body and spirit perspective.
Mind – (subconsciously it follows orders) I am actively taking steps to move towards my vision of myself.
Body – (Vision of my body) I am happy and proud of my healthy 64 kg body that is becoming stronger every day.
Spirit – (Truth) I am perfect exactly as I am.
“I understand the way to heal at a deeper level includes the following points”
– Firstly to have the intent. The teacher arrives when the student is ready.
– Be willing to ask for help
– To surrender your emotions
– Let go of old stories, they are only a bunch of letters we have given a meaning to.
– Be OK about breaking out every now and again. The NOW always keeps showing up.
– Learn to BE gentle on yourself
– Become your own best friend (This was really challenging for me, maybe I would have to forgive myself and others)
“When it comes down to it, “It is ALL about ME” I am the creator of my reality”.
Now we are getting into the interesting stuff.
See you again tomorrow
Love always
Jenny
by Jenny Leather | Life Success
An old path of surrendering 12 kg back to the universe with Ease and Grace.
Supporting me to “Reclaim my Power” and step into my own greatness.
Day 1 – After travelling this journey for 35 years I now ponder on what it was all about and how today can and is this journey going to be different. Start with being honest. It does not matter what process you choose to support you on this journey, I have tried most but truthfully I have never been willing to look at the emotional story underneath the journey.
Today is the day I am going to start the investigation with no real expectations other than to clear this at the deepest level so I am free to BE ME with ease and grace.
I wanted to look a certain way to BE seen as pretty, enough, in the group, acceptable, blah blah I thought to BE these things I needed look and dress a certain way. Yes I watched the movies and magazine’s!
Later this whole story was the one that sent me close to financial ruin.
I was unable to look at what I had when I had it, I did not recognise the ease that I was able to move around. I did not see my own abundance to be able to buy the food I was consuming. I could not see my skills as a nurse and the ability I had to make a difference to families. I did not recognise that it was MY body that was supporting all these components of my life.
33 years ago I went to Jenny Craig where they told me I needed to be 52 kg and I remember getting to 53 kg and feeling and looking AMAZING if I do say so myself only for the coach to say well you did not reach your goal. I had mentioned I was HAPPY and could I start maintenance and for her I should have kept going another week or two. (She had a story that said success meant reaching your goal anything else was not good enough)
Was she right or wrong? Neither! She was showing me a couple of things about myself. I always wanted approval or acceptance from others. She did not give it to me so I thought I was the failure.
What would have happened if I listened to my own internal guidance that said I looked amazing? How differently could I have responded? I could have said “I hear what you are say (Acknowledge the other persons opinion yet) for me NOW I am happy and proud of how I look, (Stand up for yourself) can you help me to learn to maintain this present body weight?” (Have them feel important and valuable)
Instead I went into the poor woe me story (Victim role that I have played well all my life) and allowed the coach to steal my pride in what I had achieved. ( I gave my power to her at that time unconsciously) I never did the maintenance properly because I was too busy giving myself a hard time for not reaching the goal.
I was to yo yo for the next 30 yrs. After kids I would be happy being 62 kgs. I am now 74.6 kg (MY heaviest ever but just a number showing where I am at today, not defining the future) just deciding to experience the next phase of my life in a healthy vibrant body of a 64kg women and REALLY excited about the decision. I now look back at the fact “ it did not matter what I weighed at different times” I was never happy and proud of my body image. I really did not know what happiness was or required of me to BE for happiness to BE a reality in my life. I was still being delusional about the expectations that had been marketed to me.
The difference is I NOW love my body 74.6 kg of it. (Yes I have to take a deep breath and let go of any internal judgement that arises now and again. It is OK normal, breath and let go, congratulate yourself for acknowledging your feelings)
I am able to play this game called life through this body (MY TEMPLE) Can I choose to eat differently YES. Is it to please another or so someone will acknowledge me NO.
I choose to be happy vibrant, appreciative every day and experience all that life shows for me to release any old or undercurrent feeling around self-worth.
I am learning to BE the driver of my mind and have the greater part of myself playing in the game of my life experiences. Mind body and soul as one awesome experience Over the coming weeks I am going to track this journey.
I have only just begun. Am I nervous YES but this is a journey of self-discovery and serenading to the process with the intent to release the old stories and patterns.
See You tomorrow.
Love always
Jenny
by Jenny Leather | Wealth Success
The Value in understanding the money game in relation to your Freedom
This is a very simplified version of what is happening in the world around money. The derivate system that was created is insane yet it was designed for only a few to ultimately succeed. This is why we have so much financial crisis around the world. It is all manipulated, it had to happen!
Ultimately the breakdown of the system will be for the good of the masses to enable all human beings to Reclaim their Power. To be able to design a life that is aligned to their hearts desire. Wow! Imagine living a life that had you feeling happy, is that not the purpose of this game called life?
The reason I bring the money topic up here is because if we have no idea of the games of life, how can we learn to play in an even playing field. This game at the moment depends on us staying ignorant and it is time to redesign your position and reclaim you god given power.
In today’ world money is created by people going into debt. Every country in the world has massive debt which is a major reason for all the financial trouble.
Years ago all the money in circulation was required to be backed by physical gold. Countries were only allowed to borrow no more than their actual asset base.
This made it impossible for the governments and corporations owned by a few families to print enough money to expand at the speed they desired. So they created an adjustment to the law that enable then to literally print unlimited funds ultimately devaluing the currency of the country.
If you dilute something does it become more or less valuable?
History shows that originally banks were required to hold at least 10% of the deposits on record in physical cash; today they will be lucky if they have 1 % due to some creative bookkeeping.
They (Government and large Corporations) also needed us the human being to desire more and more material goods so that we would be required to stay in debt. They knew we could not work enough hours to earn the amount of money to live the lifestyle that they were selling. Our debt allowed the banks to create large amounts of money. Conservatively $20 -$30 for every dollar you borrowed.
So the marketing machines started to work on brainwashing the people to lose perspective on what was really important in their lives and replaced it with what they could have to make them happy.
Now we have the choice to Reclaim your Power.
While we are all unconsciously brainwashed into feeling the need to buy the next best electrical device, keep up with the fashion trends along with buying a home with the entire fit out on day one. This as I explained requires you to keep expanding your debt position and ultimately enslaved to the banks, once you become aware of the game you can start making decisions to RECLAIM your POWER..
This debt game leads ultimately to surrendering our lives to slavery ensuring we need to work to pay even the bare minimum per month. Understand this is not your fault, this is actual all occurring by design to keep us worker bunny’s to benefit the few elite families. Keep us in the energy of NO POWER.
In truth they (Government and large corporations) do not want us paying off our debt because that would limit their printing press capabilities and we would not be able to be easily controlled.
Let’s be very clear Money is created when we or government choose to borrow more funds. When government borrow a dollar they actual owe $1.05 depending on the interest rate that is added at the point of creation. So let’s look at that if we borrow $10.00 yet owe $10.50 how is there enough money in the system to ever pay the money back? There is not! This has accumulated to the point the financial world is at the moment.
So what can you do? Knowledge equals power so I suggest people have a general understanding about what is happening. The only problem is that this knowledge brings up a lot of emotion about being betrayed due to being lied to all your life.
These feelings are reasonable but not valuable to hold on to because they can cause you to become stuck in what is happening, when we desire to produce a different outcome. The quicker we go through this stage the quicker and better you will flourish on the other side.
Understand YOU are not your emotions, they are feelings attached to stories that the mind believes to be real. Your emotions are presenting themselves to be released to support your healing. THEY ARE A GIFT. Whatever triggers them to arise is a GIFT. When you really understand this information at a cellular level you have found one of the KEYS to HAPPINESS.
I will share techniques we used to let go of the emotion of anger, rage, frustration, all good emotions to allow to leave you physical body.
This is not an overnight quick fix, this is a journey we can travel together. Choose to participate by asking questions and sharing your challenges. We have walked the path and are willing to share our insights COME PLAY.
Love always
Jenny
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