Surrendering Weight

Surrendering Weight

Day 1 – After travelling this journey for 35 years I now ponder on what it was all about and how today can and is this journey going to be different. Start with being honest. It does not matter what process you choose to support you on this journey, I have tried most but truthfully I have never been willing to look at the emotional story underneath the journey.

Today is the day I am going to start the investigation with no real expectations other than to clear this at the deepest level so I am free to BE ME with ease and grace.
I wanted to look a certain way to BE seen as pretty, enough, in the group, acceptable, blah blah I thought to BE these things I needed look and dress a certain way. Yes I watched the movies and magazine story’s that sold the overall image. I allowed my internal chatter to compare myself to someone else and found myself coming up short.

Later this whole story was the one that sent me close to financial ruin.

I was unable to look at what I had when I had it, I did not recognise the ease that I was able to move around. I did not see my own abundance to be able to buy the food I was consuming. I could not see my skills as a nurse and the ability I had to make a difference to families. I did not recognise that it was MY body that was supporting all these components of my life.

33 years ago I went to Jenny Craig where they told me I needed to be 52 kg and I remember getting to 53 kg and feeling and looking AMAZING if I do say so myself only for the coach to say well you did not reach your goal. I had mentioned I was HAPPY and could I start maintenance and for her I should have kept going another week or two. (She had a story that said success meant reaching your goal anything else was not good enough)

Was she right or wrong? Neither! She was showing me a couple of things about myself. I always wanted approval or acceptance from others. She did not give it to me so I thought I was the failure.
What would have happened if I listened to my own internal guidance that said I looked amazing? How differently could I have responded?  I could have said “I hear what you are say (Acknowledge the other persons opinion yet) for me NOW I am happy and proud of how I look, (Stand up for yourself) can you help me to learn to maintain this present body weight?” (Have them feel important and valuable)

Instead I went into the poor woe me story (Victim role that I have played well all my life) and allowed the coach to steal my pride in what I had achieved. ( I gave my power to her at that time unconsciously) I never did the maintenance properly because I was too busy giving myself a hard time for not reaching the goal.

I was to yo yo for the next 30 yrs. After kids I would be happy being 62 kgs. I am now 74.6 kg (MY heaviest ever but just a number showing where I am at today, not defining the future) just deciding to experience the next phase of my life in a healthy vibrant body of a  64kg women and REALLY excited about the decision.  I now look back at the fact “ it did not matter what I weighed at different times” I was never happy and proud of my body image.

I really did not know what happiness was or required of me to BE for happiness to BE a reality in my life. I was still being delusional about the expectations that had been marketed to me.

The difference is I NOW love my body 74.6 kg of it. (Yes I have to take a deep breath and let go of any internal judgement that arises now and again. It is OK normal, breath and let go, congratulate yourself for acknowledging your feelings)

I am able to play this game called life through this body (MY TEMPLE) Can I choose to eat differently YES. Is it to please another or so someone will acknowledge me NO.
I choose to be happy vibrant, appreciative every day and experience all that life shows for me to release any old or undercurrent feeling around self-worth.

I am learning to BE the driver of my mind and have the greater part of myself playing in the game of my life experiences. Mind body and soul as one awesome experience Over the coming weeks I am going to track this journey.

I have only just begun. Am I nervous YES but this is a journey of self-discovery and serenading to the process with the intent to release the old stories and patterns.

See You tomorrow.
Love always

One Tool That Supported Our Growth

One Tool That Supported Our Growth

Welcome Back!

Time to take back the power!

How often do we give our power to another?

Do you ever blame another or justify why things are the way they appear? Yes!


You don’t have to go it alone

Welcome to the human journey before we awaken to the importance of truly taking responsibility for our life in each and every moment.

Here our vision is to share our personal journey and insights that has really been about understanding our physical journey from a spiritual perspective.

This has taken us beyond the mind game and has greatly increased our understanding the value of our emotional body.

Individually we had to learn to VALUE and LOVE ourselves.

How do you start to understand this journey?

We needed to learn how we were giving away our power and how this was impacting ALL areas of our lives.

We all come with blueprints for how our lives will play out, some people understand their journey through astrological charts for us the Archetypal wheel supported our awakening.

The more we understood the journey of our life, the more we understood “why” at times we had low self-esteem and” why” we did not recognize or value our own gifts.

This level of understanding was supported by our amazing coach Isabel Vidal who guided us to understand our archetypal energy wheel. She explains how we come into this life with 12 predominate energies that are available to assist our journey to heal and ultimately to reach our potential.

I am assuming you understand that EVERYTHING is made up of energy. Emotions, humans, a rock, tree etc. Her teacher Caroline Myss has described over 50 different energies that display certain characteristics. I.e. clown energy can be seen cracking jokes sometimes covering up heartbreak or on the lighter side bringing joy to people’s lives.

So now we are aware that EVERYONE has a saboteur energy, (It may say who do you think you are?) victim energy (poor woe me) and prostitute energy (Jenny did not like the idea of owning this energy yet when she looked at how she did not value herself it did not take her long to understand its presence in her journey) and child energy (could be a wounded, orphaned or magical energy), these can all be holding us back from reaching our potential. Something to remember is that they also have the desire to support us to reach our higher potential. We also have another 8 energies that vary from person to person.

A specialist coach can support you to find out what energies are active in what house (area of your life) throughout your life. The archetypal wheel covers all 12 areas of your life (12 months, 12 zodiac signs etc.) Ego/personality, Values, self-expression, home, creativity, occupation/ health, marriage/relationship, resources, spirituality, higher purpose, relationship to the world, the unconscious. This awareness has helped us to understand both the ups and downs of our story without needing to buy into the blah blah that comes with challenge.

When we truly understood that life was about remembering our connection with the ALL (people, trees, complete universe as a whole) and how everything had an impact on my energy levels.

Over the coming months we will endeavour to explain each energy along with the impact they have had on our lives. Our life journey was designed so that we could experience both the light and dark component of each of our core energies.

This insight has supported our realisation that we had come to planet earth to heal our past challenges and to share our gifts. This had us excited about all experiences that had been appearing in our life. Some very challenging as we will explain over the weeks to come.

The depth of understanding we have acquired will be able to support you to understand what maybe showing in your own individual lives.

When we truly understood that life was about remembering our connection with the ALL (people, trees, complete universe as a whole) and how everything had an impact on my energy levels.

Over the coming months we will endeavor to explain each  energy along with the impact they have had on our lives. Our life journey was designed so that we could experience both the light and dark component of each of our core energies.

This insight has supported our realisation that we had come to planet earth to heal our past challenges and to share our gifts.  This had us excited about all experiences that had been appearing in our life. Some very challenging as we will explain over the weeks to come.

The depth of understanding we have acquired will be able to support you to understand what maybe showing in your own individual lives.

Keep coming back and interact with the blog as it evolves. See you soon.

Love always

Jenny and Gary

Value of the different Roles we play

The value of different roles we play

I spent the first 40 years of my life with no understanding that there could be something more to my life than being a mum, wife, daughter, nurse and property investor.

The majority of the time, I loved each of these roles while they were active, this now explains why I was successful when I was focused on any of them.

Each experience came with different challenges that I was later able to see the value and healing in each situation. I was unaware that I was playing these roles from my physical perspective alone. I now explain this as being asleep to a bigger picture of life. I totally ignored any support or guidance from the greater part of me. In truth I had no idea that I did not know what I did not know. This is the same for all of us until something happens in our life that starts us asking bigger and more powerful questions.

When you have no idea that you are having both a physical and spiritual journey at the same time, you have no idea how to access the insights or guidance required to support your growth. Hopefully by me sharing my journey honestly it may help with your understanding of this component of your life. By the way I love questions so please feel free to post.

It appears as we come into physicality we agree to forget any prior life or insights that we have acquired over many life times. This life, we set an intent we wish to experience XYZ and heal ABC so that ultimately we can remember who we are along with the gifts we have brought to share with the world.

As mentioned last time we are the director / producer of the script which ends up the movie of our life. We then take on the role of cast recruiter and call for cast volunteers. Then we agree to forget we did all this, weird!

This disconnection became apparent when I visited my amazing kinesiologist. I knew something was really out of alignment, really weird things were happening and I was very emotional. On muscle testing she told me the spirit (Right side of my body) was trying to convey a message for my greater good and the mind (Left side) was in shock and could not hear. Maybe it would mean change was required.

As we helped one side, the other side became depressed; luckily we got this worked out in one session. Both parts of the whole were able to hear and acknowledge each other’s level of understanding. Beautiful, I really needed help to rectify the situation I was unable to do this on my own, Remember it is OK to ask for help every now and again.

Obviously something had shocked me and the disconnection had occurred. Together my spirit/physical body was experiencing both good and bad times but instead of us seeing the experiences as MIS-TAKES to learn, reassess and refocus. The mind (Which is a bit more complex than we perhaps believe) steps in and makes a judgment / decision about the situation. This brings with it an emotional attachment to the experience.

The mind goes in search on your hard drive of your lives for similar situations that have brought up similar feelings either consciously or unconsciously. The mind then decides the reasons why something should and should not have occurred after reviewing the history from all life times. This is felt as an emotional response that is either guiding us forward or holding us back. It is up to us to choose what we decide to do at this point.

Deal with the emotion and grow or stuff it down and stay the same. Your choice! Now we are getting some understanding about our genetic line maybe playing a part in our decisions unconsciously. No one ever mentioned or taught us the value of dealing with how we feel in the moment. This would allow us to get both the learning and insights from every situation allowing us to heal all life times. Wow what a gift. This is happening daily and we are unaware, amazing!

It is this disconnection from remembering and understanding how our spirit is trying to support our healing and lift the veil that has been stopping us from remembering our own magnificence.

I understand this game called life is the weirdest game we have ever agreed to play. We are given a physical body, whether we like it or not it is absolutely perfect for us to learn a lesson that may hold a key for us to heal and reach our ultimate potential. One lesson I personally needed to learn / heal was acceptance and love of self. This has helped me to remember and connect back to all that is thereby remembering “I am the creator and script writer of my life”. By taking responsibility I am able to start Reclaiming my God given Power. Check out the gift Reclaim Your Power Flipchart. You can download by clicking on the opt in box. This chart supports you to understand energetically where you are at in any moment.

SUPPORT STEPS: When you are feeling over whelmed remember to breathe deeply into you abdomen. Slow the breath down and allow the feeling to flow through you choosing to feel the relief. What you resist persists because the emotion gets caught in the body so in the allowing it can flow on. Please remember you are cared and loved from above at all times. I know this from the depth of my being. Until next time love always.




Understand this Game called Life!

Understanding this game called life

The truth is we are all amazing human beings with the unlimited potential to achieve or create anything we desire.  The question for us has been, How do we tap into our potential?

We believe the most important place for humanity to start is to learn to “LOVE OURSELVES”.

We also understand the challenge this holds for a large number of us. We also have spent years challenged in this area of our lives. Yet this is so essential especially now because we cannot give what we do not own. LOVE!

This is what is required to heal the planet from our opinion. If we always asked “What would love say? Or what would love desire?” We would have no wars or abuse of another being on this planet.
It is time to step up to the plate and ask for support for you to either remember or heal whatever is stopping you shining.

The universe/god never denies us anything. We need to put a warning at this point, we have learned the lessons do not always come in a way we expected, so get ready for the ride.

The insights and lessons that you acquire will take your life to the next level.

We choose for this to happen with EASE!

We would love to share our understanding of this amazing journey we call” Life “over the coming weeks and months ahead.
Our story is coming from the understanding that we are first a spiritual being having an amazing journey through our physical body. God experience’s life through means of me!
As a spirit we could not experience or understand emotions without choosing to step back into this physical body. We had a vision for how the world could transform and reach it ultimate potential. We also had the understanding that we would be required to do some healing work to support this vision becoming a reality.

When we are in a spiritual form we have the connection to all that is and can understand everything that we need to learn. We understand we need to heal ourselves to reach the next level of evolution of the universe. We know that the physical reality on the earth plane that we get to experience is a mirror of that which is within us.

Don’t close on me yet this may be a bit of a challenge because we also agreed with the need to forget these memories. It was required so we can have experiences that will help us heal the challenged parts of ourselves.
The exciting news is everyone who visits your life especially those major players signed up to support you to grow.

Yes even the ones that have been the most challenging.

When you understand this you are able to honour and value their presence and gift.

Back in the spiritual realm you probably promised them that you would remember their sacrifice they pledged. Time to remember and this is fantastic in supporting you to drop all judgement. For me this has been an amazing gift.
The cosmic joke (God really is a trickster) is that “Emotions” are the key that can unlock the healing and thereby increase our vibration and ability to create our desire outcome. This can only happen while we are in the physical form.

Then the next problem occurs, when we are in physical form many of us stuff down our emotions then lay pieces of concrete on top of the pain, anger, and fear etc. thereby cheating ourselves out of the healing they offer.

Really we have been set up to only awaken as we heal yet our mind takes control early in life by having us fall victim to fear. (New topic) By choosing to feel the emotions you allow them to be released. Which ultimately increases our vibration this in turn enables us to access much greater support from our spiritual support teams.
Do you think it could be good to start informing your mind that you wish to be the boss and create consciously?

Yes! Well lets’ get started.
SUPPORT STEPS: Start by finding a quiet place and choose to focus or recall a moment when you were completely happy, just hold this thought for 15 -20 seconds. For some this may be difficult in the beginning. If you recognize the chatter starting, see the thoughts just running across a TV screen and see it go black as the thoughts just dissolve away. Repeat the process numerous times a day. Congratulate yourself! You are starting to consciously create your life by taking control of your mind…
Until we meet again love always Jenny


Jenny and Gary Leather

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