Surrendering Weight

Day 1 – After travelling this journey for 35 years I now ponder on what it was all about and how today can and is this journey going to be different. Start with being honest. It does not matter what process you choose to support you on this journey, I have tried most but truthfully I have never been willing to look at the emotional story underneath the journey.

Today is the day I am going to start the investigation with no real expectations other than to clear this at the deepest level so I am free to BE ME with ease and grace.
I wanted to look a certain way to BE seen as pretty, enough, in the group, acceptable, blah blah I thought to BE these things I needed look and dress a certain way. Yes I watched the movies and magazine story’s that sold the overall image. I allowed my internal chatter to compare myself to someone else and found myself coming up short.

Later this whole story was the one that sent me close to financial ruin.

I was unable to look at what I had when I had it, I did not recognise the ease that I was able to move around. I did not see my own abundance to be able to buy the food I was consuming. I could not see my skills as a nurse and the ability I had to make a difference to families. I did not recognise that it was MY body that was supporting all these components of my life.

33 years ago I went to Jenny Craig where they told me I needed to be 52 kg and I remember getting to 53 kg and feeling and looking AMAZING if I do say so myself only for the coach to say well you did not reach your goal. I had mentioned I was HAPPY and could I start maintenance and for her I should have kept going another week or two. (She had a story that said success meant reaching your goal anything else was not good enough)

Was she right or wrong? Neither! She was showing me a couple of things about myself. I always wanted approval or acceptance from others. She did not give it to me so I thought I was the failure.
What would have happened if I listened to my own internal guidance that said I looked amazing? How differently could I have responded?  I could have said “I hear what you are say (Acknowledge the other persons opinion yet) for me NOW I am happy and proud of how I look, (Stand up for yourself) can you help me to learn to maintain this present body weight?” (Have them feel important and valuable)

Instead I went into the poor woe me story (Victim role that I have played well all my life) and allowed the coach to steal my pride in what I had achieved. ( I gave my power to her at that time unconsciously) I never did the maintenance properly because I was too busy giving myself a hard time for not reaching the goal.

I was to yo yo for the next 30 yrs. After kids I would be happy being 62 kgs. I am now 74.6 kg (MY heaviest ever but just a number showing where I am at today, not defining the future) just deciding to experience the next phase of my life in a healthy vibrant body of a  64kg women and REALLY excited about the decision.  I now look back at the fact “ it did not matter what I weighed at different times” I was never happy and proud of my body image.

I really did not know what happiness was or required of me to BE for happiness to BE a reality in my life. I was still being delusional about the expectations that had been marketed to me.

The difference is I NOW love my body 74.6 kg of it. (Yes I have to take a deep breath and let go of any internal judgement that arises now and again. It is OK normal, breath and let go, congratulate yourself for acknowledging your feelings)

I am able to play this game called life through this body (MY TEMPLE) Can I choose to eat differently YES. Is it to please another or so someone will acknowledge me NO.
I choose to be happy vibrant, appreciative every day and experience all that life shows for me to release any old or undercurrent feeling around self-worth.

I am learning to BE the driver of my mind and have the greater part of myself playing in the game of my life experiences. Mind body and soul as one awesome experience Over the coming weeks I am going to track this journey.

I have only just begun. Am I nervous YES but this is a journey of self-discovery and serenading to the process with the intent to release the old stories and patterns.

See You tomorrow.
Love always
Jenny

One Tool that supported our Growth

Welcome Back!

Time to take back the power!

How often do we give our power to another?

Do you ever blame another or justify why things are the way they appear? Yes!

 

You don’t have to go it alone

Welcome to the human journey before we awaken to the importance of truly taking responsibility for our life in each and every moment.

Here our vision is to share our personal journey and insights that has really been about understanding our physical journey from a spiritual perspective.

This has taken us beyond the mind game and has greatly increased our understanding the value of our emotional body.

Individually we had to learn to VALUE and LOVE ourselves.

How do you start to understand this journey?

We needed to learn how we were giving away our power and how this was impacting ALL areas of our lives.

We all come with blueprints for how our lives will play out, some people understand their journey through astrological charts for us the Archetypal wheel supported our awakening.

The more we understood the journey of our life, the more we understood “why” at times we had low self-esteem and” why” we did not recognize or value our own gifts.

This level of understanding was supported by our amazing coach Isabel Vidal who guided us to understand our archetypal energy wheel. She explains how we come into this life with 12 predominate energies that are available to assist our journey to heal and ultimately to reach our potential.

I am assuming you understand that EVERYTHING is made up of energy. Emotions, humans, a rock, tree etc. Her teacher Caroline Myss has described over 50 different energies that display certain characteristics. I.e. clown energy can be seen cracking jokes sometimes covering up heartbreak or on the lighter side bringing joy to people’s lives.

So now we are aware that EVERYONE has a saboteur energy, (It may say who do you think you are?) victim energy (poor woe me) and prostitute energy (Jenny did not like the idea of owning this energy yet when she looked at how she did not value herself it did not take her long to understand its presence in her journey) and child energy (could be a wounded, orphaned or magical energy), these can all be holding us back from reaching our potential. Something to remember is that they also have the desire to support us to reach our higher potential. We also have another 8 energies that vary from person to person.

A specialist coach can support you to find out what energies are active in what house (area of your life) throughout your life. The archetypal wheel covers all 12 areas of your life (12 months, 12 zodiac signs etc.) Ego/personality, Values, self-expression, home, creativity, occupation/ health, marriage/relationship, resources, spirituality, higher purpose, relationship to the world, the unconscious. This awareness has helped us to understand both the ups and downs of our story without needing to buy into the blah blah that comes with challenge.

When we truly understood that life was about remembering our connection with the ALL (people, trees, complete universe as a whole) and how everything had an impact on my energy levels.

Over the coming months we will endeavour to explain each energy along with the impact they have had on our lives. Our life journey was designed so that we could experience both the light and dark component of each of our core energies.

This insight has supported our realisation that we had come to planet earth to heal our past challenges and to share our gifts. This had us excited about all experiences that had been appearing in our life. Some very challenging as we will explain over the weeks to come.

The depth of understanding we have acquired will be able to support you to understand what maybe showing in your own individual lives.

When we truly understood that life was about remembering our connection with the ALL (people, trees, complete universe as a whole) and how everything had an impact on my energy levels.

Over the coming months we will endeavor to explain each  energy along with the impact they have had on our lives. Our life journey was designed so that we could experience both the light and dark component of each of our core energies.

This insight has supported our realisation that we had come to planet earth to heal our past challenges and to share our gifts.  This had us excited about all experiences that had been appearing in our life. Some very challenging as we will explain over the weeks to come.

The depth of understanding we have acquired will be able to support you to understand what maybe showing in your own individual lives.

Keep coming back and interact with the blog as it evolves. See you soon.

Love always

Jenny and Gary

Our Journey to visit with John of God

Part 1
2 years ago this week we set out on our adventure to visit John of God at the Casa in Brazil. Little did we know that we would return with a “Crystal light healing Bed” and how our life would change for the better in the coming 2 years.
We left Melbourne and firstly went to England to visit Gary’s family and friends. We had packed up everything we owned into 2 storage units and mums garage. Trip pretty much paid for and no idea where or what we would be doing on our return. Trusting in the process of BEing open to heal and receive.
I will do a quick refresh for friends who are not aware of our journey the previous 5 years. We had experienced challenges on numerous levels. One of our sons had traveled the journey of removing cancer from body while months later his brother had amputated his fingers in a work place accident. Similar time frame my only brother died of massive heart attack on the train station and our business world collapsed around us after the global financial crisis. This was to also take our home and a large portion of our financial wealth. This left me asking what had I done wrong, I really knew I was a good person yet had no idea why all this was happening in succession.
When your world gets turned upside down like this I now understand the divine has a hand in the journey.
I had been interested in energy awareness and the reality of connecting with my soul’s journey; I specifically requested to understand the power of emotions. Wow, looking back BE careful what you ask for, I was to experience the depths of despair only to then rebuild and return to a place of peace, calm, inspiration, love and massively appreciative of the whole journey.
Interesting to observe the freedom we felt as we left Australia. The universe had conspired for us to go to Brazil for 5 weeks specifically to be in his presence on 21/12 2012 at the time it seemed to us to be a long visit.
Firstly my passport got held up for 33 days much longer than anyone expected. I had wanted to go in September to meet my son who was traveling with his girlfriend. That was not to be, the airfare nearly doubled and then when I checked for November they were ridiculously cheap $1340 return to England. When I went to the travel agency the girl who had been helping us could not get this price, when I checked again they were available (message do your own booking) I am extremely intuitive and was told I needed to go for 5 weeks yet Gary could not imagine what we were going to do for that long in a literally one horse town. So I thought lets go for 3 weeks, every time I tried the flight cost doubled or more. When I tried to book the 5 week stay everything fell into place with ease. So 5 weeks was the go!

In hindsight we needed this amount of time to heal then serve others.
Lesson here was when the universe is trying to help you surrender you need to let it do its work. Yes! this take trust and allowing the control desire to dissipate.
I also know you need to BE open to the possibility that you have the power to heal yourself emotionally, physically or spiritually. I have experienced that being in the presence of John of God and allowing the Crystal light healing bed sessions to support and fast track your process to awakening is a great gift to self.
2 years later we are looking forward to making new friends at John of God’s event in Sydney this month.
The universe conspired to have us attend with ease and Grace. Magic in play!

Love always

Jenny

Interesting Insight into the energy of Justification.

Interesting Insight into the energy of Justification.

How many of us have heard the saying ”The truth shall set you free”?

Wow have I learned the truth hidden within this wisdom. I realise we lie to ourselves out of fear of facing a reality that is present in our lives. We are not aware that the universe is trying to teach us something about ourselves that needs healing.

Little things like telling myself “Eating a big slab of cheesecake when also doing no exercise would not affect my weight”. At some level I use to justify eating the cake because in truth I wanted to do what I wanted to do but I did not really want to accept the consequence. I would lie and justify to myself why I was going to eat the cake. This has been true at so many different levels of my life over the years.

People who have known me over the last 10 years know I am passionate about understanding how we give our power away to life and WHY.

I realised last year this journey has been about ME learning to reclaim my own god given power by remembering my own unlimited potential.

If these insights add value to another so BE it but really it is about me awakening to my own journey.

Recently I was reviewing our “Reclaim your Power Flipchart” that supports our clients to be aware of when they have been giving their power away. (Playing below the line of taking responsibility)

I have looked at this chart 1000’s of times over the last eight years but never really understood or been prepared to face my own process to what happens internally when I have justified why things have happened as they have over the last 5 years.

I realised before a comment came out my mouth that justified a situation, if the thoughts originated from the energy of fear, the story I told myself was probably a lie because I feared the truth that needed to be faced, for me to come out the other side.

If I was able to tell myself and others the truth years earlier perhaps I would have been able to fulfill this journey earlier. For this to happen I would have needed to be able face the truth that we had lost millions of dollars which in turn meant I had to surrender my family home to the bank. The pain this bought up for me meant that I would lie or tell myself a story that would ease the pain; even if for some short period of time.

“In hindsight if I had of understood the value of releasing

how I was feeling at that time”

I could have moved through this faze with far greater ease. Great to see in hindsight!

I realise now the truth will eventually arrive at your door.

My behavior enabled others to lie to me because I was not ready to own my own mis-takes. On review perhaps we can only deal with small increments of our mis-takes at any one time because the reality of the situation can be too much to handle especially if you do not have the support to guide you through the challenge. This maybe the reason people go to alcohol and drugs because they do not understand a truth about our physical journey is that with great challenges comes amazing insights and healing.

Yes I can say this now as I emerge out the other side; I can see my own lack of belief in my own potential had me surrendering my power to people who had the same doubts and concerns but were perhaps better at selling a potential reality that subconsciously I desired.

Fame, fortune and an amazing lifestyle; all external representation that would tell me I was enough. The joke now was Gary and I was already living the lifestyle that the majority of the world would have loved to have experienced. We owned our home, traveled regularly with our 3 healthy beautiful boys. We had been in business for over 20 years and continued to grow each year: to top it off we were doing it with our soul partners, best friends and the best support team that we could have asked for; each other.

These challenges presented for us to see and remember the truth within the whole journey; we were always enough but we were tricked in believing we need more to prove to ourselves that we were successful in the eyes of others. This had use continually giving our power away to the life journey. I understand all is perfect because without these experiences’ I would not be able to explain to you how to start to reclaim your power.

“The truth shall set you free because it comes from the energy of LOVE”

and now I realise:

“that justification supported by lies coming from the energy of FEAR”

Hopefully this information supports us to face the truth of what life is presenting so together we can all heal with ease. I would Love to support you if you are ready.

Contact me by leaving a message below or via the website. I also regularly check all private messages on facebook.

By sharing my journey from the level I understand it today I hope it adds value to others. Enjoy the journey.

Love always

Jenny

The Value of understanding Congruency and Integrity Part 2

The Value of understanding Congruency and Integrity Part 2

On reviewing my journey:check out part 1 yesterday if you missed it,  http://jennyleather.com/?p=675

I love looking back over my journey and examine why I made the choices I did and how those decisions impacted my energy levels. When I was able to become the observer of my journey I could feel I was on the road to “RECLAIM MY POWER”

My energy started to shift when I was willing to BE responsible for all outcomes I was experiencing.

Have you ever found yourself in a meeting or out for dinner when people are big noting what they are able to do or achieve but something within you suspects that they are exaggerating the possibility?

In hindsight, I have been in these meetings but at that time I was unable or willing to listen to my own internal warning system, intuition has been given to us all, as a support program that many are yet to understand its potential to save us from a lot of pain.

My message now is too  “Trust your own knowing”;   be willing to ask more questions to ensure people’s authenticity. If they do not like the questioning; so be it, be willing to walk away.

 If you are worried about what they will think of you, BE VERY WARY, this may be a warning sign of your willingness to put other people needs ahead of your own. If the deal is really  for you it will be there tomorrow.

At a different level in these meeting; we understand that the soul of each individual connects in the first seconds of the meeting and knows straight away if the person speaking is coming from a space of truth or exaggeration. When a person is really out of integrity and their intention is to deceive you, your soul sends an emotion of discomfort felt as anxiety, it is then up to us to be open to this messaging. We need to be able to stand in our own truth, question or walk away.

This has been a major lesson for me to learn especially when I feared the reality of the situation. I found myself in a situation where it was too late to change my mind. I found out too late that we had been lied to and deceived; the time came when I need to accept the consequence that was not easy to accept.

Loss of our family home, I only share this with the intent to save others a similar pain if possible. We all have to travel our own journey of discovery.

I needed to come to the understanding that there was something within me that needed healing and understanding for me to be able to teach about the human journey in the future.

I struggled to accept this reality because I wanted my life to go a certain way yet I had set the intent to understand this human game through the eyes of my soul.

I was to realize to truly understand the mind, body soul journey I needed to experience the ups and the downs from a non-judgmental space. This was to take me years to master and hopefully I am starting to see the magic in the many facets of this game called life.

The truth will always appear in life yet the timing may not happen when you expect it to appear.

Truth has a persistence and strong energy!

When we forget our true potential and ability to manifest in alignment with the universe we can get caught up in others journey; finding ourselves attempting to be enough through their vision.

I can now see myself unconsciously bending the truth due to lack of homework or research ultimately had me creating more crap to deal with in the future until I got the insight and learning’s that were available to me.

Healing comes when we are willing to stand in the sapce of taking responsibility for our part in the journey.

Hard lesson to learn yet I found it amazingly valuable to my journey and intent to awaken to a truth of my physical journey?

This appears to be a way of awakening to the illusions that encompass our lives on a daily basis; we seem to be able to manipulate meaning to suit our unconscious agendas, interesting game.

When you understand that the challenges that life sends are present for us to grow and mend the parts of ourselves that need transformation, we start to look at these circumstances from a space of gratitude.

Fantastic opportunity to take responsibility, heal how we felt that had us needing to inflate an idea and decide to operate from a space of honesty and integrity knowing that at any moment we are enough.

Have a great day

Love always

Jenny