Day 23 – Healing at a Mind, Body and Spirit level allows for COMPLETION of a issue.
I understand weight issues are not just about the food we put in our mouth. The issue has been a symptom of conflicting issues in my life. I am not altogether sure I understand it all; I can see it is attached to self-esteem and self-worth areas. Complex in the least!
What happened to trigger the start of the problem? Was it something I read or heard? In truth it does not matter it is probably a culmination of numerous incidents and there is definitely different story attached to the validity of the situation.
For me I can see it was a way of hiding due to my own self-worth fragility which in and of itself is complex. When I really dig deep I think it occurs because I had lost my connection with myself from a mind body spirit perspective, Who was I to be brilliant, confident and a leader in doing what I loved? Now I realise how dare I not BE.
When I realised Everything was made up of the same substance at a quantum level and I remember thinking if I took one bucket of water out of the ocean, the only thing that was separating this water from being the ocean was the bucket. The same is truth for me; the only thing separating me from being all that is would be my physical body. At the moment of embodying this truth I realised healing had to be a multi-level event.
For this weight issue, on a spiritual level, I sent my picture to St John of God in Brazil and asked for healing in relation to my addiction to sugar and white flour. I also asked for this healing on the crystal bed here in Melbourne. Then on an emotional level I have been journaling this experience each day surrendering any emotion that is hindering my journey. At times I have had to sit with an emotion for a couple of hours or days before it moves through and out of my body. I first welcome and BE with how I am feeling with an intention for it to be dealt with at a higher level. Last but not least on a physical level I decided to use some drops to help my body eat my own fat, this required low calorie diet for the first 6 weeks to help eliminate the addiction my body held.
An interesting observation: I have been doing this journey alongside my husband. Neither of us has been hungry and if we experience strange feelings we imagine that the Pac Men are gobbling our excess fat. In truth it is a mind game supported by of souls/mind intent and played out in the physical body with many different rewards attached.
Manifestation of my vision “Slim Trim Feeling Terrific” with Ease supported by Grace.
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Day 22 – Weigh in Morning
My vision “Slim Trim Feeling Terrific” with Ease supported by Grace has moved a leap in the right direction.
I am excited to say I have surrendered 5 kg and 31 cms at least back to the universe with ease. This is symbolic of all the old stories and limiting belief patterns that I have finally transformed into what works for me. The mind has being playing in a karmic journey which I now believe is complete. I have paid my dues now it is time to get on with life with ease and the support of grace.
I feel strangely calm; it is as though the weight is not important it’s an outward projection of the changes within. I feel good about me and that is all that matters in this moment.
Have a Great Day, do something special for YOU
Day 19 – Fantastic feedback from a loyal Friend.
Isabel Vidal started out as my coach and evolved into a close friend who supports my journey of staying on my path to reach my greatest potential. She rang recently to mentioned that on reviewing my journaling she noticed that one moment I spoke about the “ I “ and then I would jump to the “we”. This was fantastic feedback because at some level I was still disassociated from the learning’s and insights that I was sharing. In truth the insights have come from my own journey of deep discovery and I am guessing still have a bit of a hold.
I went back to review the last posts and could see exactly what she had highlighted. I went in to edit willing to own my own journey of self-discovery. After doing 4 or 5 I decided to leave it and move forward all part of the journey and becoming conscious of how tricky our mind can be to have us stay the same and not move in to the future with ease supported by grace. Isabel for me is part of the grace
I had been justifying that when I moved to the”we” I was trying to support other people to understand their journey. (The rescuer shines again) This allowed me to maintain a distance from the truth and owning the insights as my new reality. I now realise the purpose of this journaling is about me owning my journey and sharing while standing in my truth.
As a parent I can see how I hid behind this facade because I did not know a different reality. I thought being the wife, nurse, mother, driver, cook, and cleaner was who I am supposed to be. As that need disappeared who was I now?
“This is an ongoing journey of evolving and exploring possible potential
and comes with unlimited opportunities.”
The challenge for me has been to choose the opportunities that serve the greater picture of my life. Not to get distracted by the gold shiny possible opportunities that end up taking me off track.
I now finding myself asking different questions “Will this serve my vision for my life or is it taking me away”? The answer comes quickly and enables me to walk away from distractions. If it involves financial exchange “How quickly can I recoup my investment”? What is the value exchange? How much control do I truly have in this investment?
Questioning have served all the different decisions that I have needed to make in relation to work, money or relationships on a daily, weekly or monthly basis. When I was operating unconsciously I asked none. I understand change does not happen overnight Patience is a virtue read on http://jennyleather.com/life/day-32-_-patience-is-an-asset
Enjoy your day
Day 16 – Everyone has their gifts and talents
I never really understood at school why I was forced to focus on the things that I was not good at instead of spending the time improving my skills on what I loved doing. Yes it is an advantage to be able to read and write to function in this world. Now I am realising to be happy and value yourself has a way higher priority.
For some people the playing of sport makes them go into anxiety attacks, the idea of being snuggled up on the couch reading a good book is exciting to them. Whereas others like me hated the idea of painting or sitting inside reading a book, it made me feel like a prisoner. My spirit needed to be out in the fresh air, neither way is any better than another; it is about finding out what has you feeling good. Interesting as I got older I enjoyed the reading and not the sport. This has shown me values and priorities change at different stages of our lives.
The point is I have been given freedom of individual choice on purpose; my job is to find out what makes MY heart sing on a daily basis.
I love exploring how our mind and spirit play the game of life together. How each has their own opinion of what will serve my journey. It could be perceived to be a power game yet I now realise if I view it as a marriage where I value and honour each components gifts. I am going to be able to experience life in an awesome fashion. Designed by me!
The spirit understands the game I came to earth to play. It understands the sacred contract that was agreed to so that I could heal and evolve to reach my greatest potential. Where the mind, was to play its part by allowing me to see different perspectives of everything, enabling me to choose which would have me moving towards or away from my vision.
Even in this weight loss journey I can be in control of my mind and tell it what is my desire and how the game will be played. It is interesting to notice neither Gary nor I have been feeling hungry. Yes every now and again I think I would love a chocolate biscuit with my cup of tea. I stop” and ask myself will it take me towards or away from my vision of being “Slim Trim feeling Terrific”? Yes no further thought required!
I am not saying I can never have a chocolate biscuit but for the moment, I do not need it and am choosing not to have one. Big difference from the last couple of years: eating whatever I wanted unconsciously not worrying about the outcome. I was also doing this with decisions in other areas of my life mainly because I feared the outcome of looking at reality.
Fear is the predominate energy that gets many of us into trouble. Fear of what will happen or what something may mean. The government and the large corporates love having people in fear because they can be easily manipulated to play their games and cover the fear up with buying things and eating. Very profitable areas of the economy as I can see by the annual turnovers! When i overeat, I realise I become sad, self-critical; this is the cause of the vicious circle starts over again.
At this point the mind is in control and the spirit is being ignored the majority of the time.
When I choose to come from LOVE and that starts with love of self, I am able to choose what makes me happy in any moment.
Enjoy the day while pondering on “What makes my heat sing?”
Day 13 – Emotions are a Gift of Healing.
Another cloudy yet beautiful morning pondering on how did I ever get on the dieting cycle?
I think most of the weight loss centres intention started out to support people to lose weight but within a very short time realised for the business model to work people would need to buy their brand of diet products that started a multibillion dollar industry that may now have an agenda about people not healing the underlying issues. They want people to keep returning 2 -3 years down the track if not sooner.
They sell lifetime packages hopefully to gain loyalty when they need to return next time. They really make their money on the food and support products we all buy. I have no issue with people making money but imagine the response from customers and the referrals that would follow if they could deal with the underlying self-worth or fear of success issues as well. Wow would that be worth attending.
The better answer would be to have emotional intelligence as a class in school. Start with the healing before the physical issue manifests into a reality.
Enough of the soap box, I can see if we understood to deal with our emotions and not stuff them down and lay concrete on top we would have a lot less dis-ease.
As I have mentioned numerous times emotions are a gift that can allow healing on the inside with ease. As children if our feelings are acknowledged instead of comments like ‘stop crying you baby”. This was said too many boys as a way of making them more manly. They learned that to show emotion is wrong, must stuff it down and after many years they have trouble feeling or dealing with life challenges that appear. They did not learn to understand and release the emotion that is now held in the body they are holding all the anger, pain, sadness etc. all undealt with emotion.
What was said to you that stopped you believing in you? Who stole your dreams? How did you feel at the time and how did you respond at the time. What have you been telling yourself all these years after that occurred. Maybe who do I think I am to do xyz or I really am not smart enough to do ABC.
Let’s look at another possibility, A teacher says XYZ that has you feeling small and worthless, you feel, angry, embarrassed and do not hear that she is attempting to highlight something you did that is hindering you succeeding from her opinion. All that you can think about is your friends that are listening to this and what they might be thinking.
I am here to tell you, it is not about what they are or aren’t thinking it is about how you are feeling. Those feeling were within you or they would not have presented. We may not remember what incident or drama they are attached to and we do not need to know anything other than it is time to surrender these emotions to a higher power (whatever that is for you, God, Allah, Budda, Universal power, Love) and ask for help and support. Where else are you feeling vulnerable? What action do you need to make to feel safe? Who can you talk too for support? These would have been valuable question to examine in the moment of the incident. No time like the present ask the questions now.
When we release the feeling attached to these or any story we can be free to BE anything that we can imagine. You can achieve and DO anything that brings you joy, hope, optimism so dare to have ago.
Dare to put your old way of being behind you and forge a life that supports your dreams and passion.
Excess weight is a symptom of being out of alignment with your authentic self. It is a journey to uncover you magnificent authentic self, a journey well worth endeavouring on.
It is always “All about you” and the vibration you are emitting to the world. If we emit self-love and strong self-worth backed by travelling a path that delivers our gifts to others, magic will happen to bring joy and love into your life.
Have a great, prosperous day